Free woman

 I am a free woman.

I am able to make choice on my own.

Not on under any influences.

I am able to educate myself.

I am able to feel the air in the earth without any oppresion.

I am able to do anything I want by myself, independently.

I love woman and I love being a woman myself.

Thank Allah.

I am grateful for being born woman in the era,

where everything is possible. 

I have a very strong woman as my role model, my beloved mom.

She showed me that everything is possible. No one can stop you if you put your mind into it.

Never stop having hope and trying to make it real cause you are free woman.

Kuantan

0712hrs

14 May 2023

*Alhamdulillah for being able to appreciate the morning today. Btw, I alr took shower, perform prayer and wash my dirty clothes by 7am. Thumbs up to this free woman.

 just realised

i am young and capable

i am able to do anything that my hearts want

no one able to stop you if you want to

 hey,

just finished my work out for today.

it is a depressing day although i have nothing much going on.

hate anger suppressed inside of me.

requiring endorphine, morphine or any hormone that can release some of this stress.

Ya Allah, make me stronger to face this obstacles.

 am i happy?

my happiness lasted for a while

i want it lasted forever

i want peace and calmness

my heart filled with sorrow and anger

that i could not even express and release

they collected inside

rotting my heart

what's left is scar

that unable to be healed by anything again

everyone thought that i am okay

i am in a good state of mind

but

did they know?

how this face hiding 1001 feelings inside the body

i hate people

they are all wearing mask

no one being their true selves.

My heart ache

 I have a heart ache.

That I could not understand.

I bet no one will understand or able to diagnose my heart ache.

My heart ache when I am alone.

I could not do what I loved so much before this.

Myself could not be in peace. 

Everyday is a war.

I slept more.

I rested more.

I could not study.

I could not think.

I dont feel happy.

I dont want to meet people.

I just want to scream where no one is there.

My heart ache.

I could not do anything.

Please help me.